The usual.

My day was epically uneventful. I woke up, went to work, came home, DIDN'T write music, then went to rehearsal and now here I am: desperately trying to pull something out of the abyss of a day to write about and hopefully entertain you...... Nope... nothing...

Have you ever been friends with someone and then you just... weren't anymore? Like, have you ever had a best best best friend that you could tell absolutely anything to, would die for you, and you for them, and then out of the blue, you're just not really even friends? That's happened between Erica and I. We even dated. (far too awkward so we both called it off) We remained friends for years after that and then all the sudden we just stopped... needing each other. I don't know what happened.

Have you ever been in one of those REALLY uncomfortable scenarios where you had to be around an old friend that you don't really talk to or have anything in common with anymore? Well, Erica's dancing the lead in the Nutcracker. It's not really heart-breaking that we're not friends. It isn't inspiring in anyway. There isn't hardly any desire on either side to rekindle the friendship. We're both just there, with the faint memory of the intimacy that USED to be there and not sure if we can act on that past relationship or act like we hardly know each other. It's... painful, really. Not in an emotional ties, sort of  way. More in a you-just-can't-look-away kind of... way... I don't know. I'll figure it out. Somebody will do something. Or not. Or the show will just end and we'll part ways again...

Ugh... Life is far to complicated. There are way too many ellipses for my taste.

Peace, Love, and the ability to keep friends around,

Matty Taylor :-/